A bit of a whirlwind week...CT scan, oh his potassium is low again, just kidding, it's not (we were read the wrong report), meeting to hear about the CT....ahhhhh the emotional and adrenaline roller coaster! WE ARE WIPED!
BUT.... the good news is the look at the CT was a lot of good things! Scott's lung looks significantly better! Some spots shrunk, some grew a bit. But nothing significant and nothing that needs immediate attention! We call this a win! Scott's body needs a break and I couldn't have been more relieved than I was knowing he didn't have to do any more poison (chemo) right now!
Like running a long race or public speaking....it's often after the big event that you kind of crash. You've expelled everything you've got and then you either get sick or sleep for hours. Like you finally gave your body permission. We are kind of there. Not physically ill, thank God! But just a bit worn and depleted. The adrenaline wore off and we can be "normal" for a second...but our nerves and emotions are just so raw from all the keeping-it-together-ness. If you know, you know. We have to fill with right things right now-not just nutritionally but emotionally, mentally, spiritually. We can't be driving around this crazy journey without gas in the tank! We push forward on this daily!
The red sea and standing firm have been very clear ways the Lord has spoken to us over and over. Scott has heard God clearly through those passages and hangs onto that tightly. Yesterday, we walked up to the sea unsure of what we would encounter. And we keep walking today. This isn't a short fight for us. There isn't really an end in sight per say. But we live every day walking to the water. We ask God to fight the battles. We wrestle with Him and ask for the blessings. The blessings of more. The miracles. And we see some of them. Rare, aggressive cancer isn't wreaking havoc! This is a miracle! He is walking with us-we feel Him and see Him so often. Miracles.
Please keep praying as we walk this out. There are battles daily. Life goes on and this is as hard for our kids and families as it is on us. I am humbled and filled when I hear the way you all are asking boldly too. Some days it carries me when I can't make the words. God has been so good to us. He's being kind to our kids. He is so present and my prayer is that if you can't see Him in the every day or in the world right now, that you see Him in our story.
